Ersatz Living

by Anwar Sadat

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Camryn Marquez
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Camryn Marquez Really in love with this record. It's kind of like a post-punk version of Daughters mixed with some kind of nasty death metal vocalist and electronics, via Pop. 1280, gentrifying through the Godflesh ghetto. It's all kinds of fucked up-- God bless'em, though. It's a parading, yelling, dissolving figure letting out its last death scream before shotgun-ing off its own head. Favorite track: Todestriebe.
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released January 27, 2017

Buddy Crime - drums
Clay Farris - guitar
Hank Paradis - synth, sampler, additional vox on 'Ubik'
Shane Wesley - bass, vox

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Track Name: Ersatz Living
from the silence
of the void
to the violence
of birth
from the warmth
of a mother
to the cold
in the earth

breathe the air
in my lungs
feel the pulse
of my blood
feel the whole
of my body
resonating
with love

be
here
now
Track Name: Cauterize
take my head
hold me down
stick your fingers
in my mouth
fill my throat
make me sick
cover me
in your spit
show me love
show me love
show me love
show me love

cut through me
exsanguinate
all desire
i’m just a void

bite my tongue
with your kiss
bruise my skin
with your fist
show me that
i exist
fuck me til
i forget
show me love
show me love
show me love
show me love

cut through me
exsanguinate
all desire
i’m just a void
Track Name: Weltschmerz
i don’t recognize myself
this body disgusts me
just flesh, blood, shit, and piss
i’m a walking disease
yearn to castrate sensation
i deny myself
human animal staring back
I look into its eyes
but there’s nothing there

this hate courses through my blood
its stench on my breath
crawl through this fucking life
waiting for my death
yearn to castrate sensation
i deny myself
human animal defies its nature
i look into its eyes
but there’s nothing left
Track Name: Lower Than Life
the cameras focus
the vacant stare
the awful hiss
of escaping air

serrated knife
severs the head
bleeding out
in violent red

a child’s body
blown apart
held together
in mother’s arms

the hands of God
smeared in shit
a prayer for mercy
a death that’s quick

the temptation to exist
(lower than life)
a universal emptiness
(lower than life)

cities gutted
and left to burn
to be forgotten
the world keeps turning

nature’s indifference
uninterrupted
we’re voyeurs of
our own destruction

no hell below
no heaven above
to radiate
eternal love

God is a sadist
down on your knees
pray for mercy
beg for release

the temptation to exist
(lower than life)
a universal emptiness
(lower than life)
Track Name: No Exit
this awful body
captive to this life
the nausea of being
thrusts in like a knife

press my face to the wall
beat my fists at the wall
isolation drowns out this feeling

i see no way out

an act of surrender
i can no longer pretend
this cycle of failure
is a means to an end

the void beckons us all
i don't fear it at all
desperation strips life its meaning

I see no way out
Track Name: Quantum Fighter
consumed
powerless
confined by excess

useless conquests
define our success

war makes brave men
we enforce discipline

to own is our innate desire
in uniform
rank and file

occupy the target
assimilate the culture
war never ends
take an eye
for an eye

rich men rise
like scum of the earth

flaunt their God’s money
what is it worth?

shameless lap dogs
beg for more

swallow your tongue
what is it for?
Track Name: Geshenkgeber
come put your knife in me
fuck without empathy
you give me what i need
punish the whore in me
pitiless world of rape
love offers no escape
you make me someone else
I’m nothing to myself

empty your hate in me
i’ll be your property
down on my hands and knees
begging for your disease
a greedy mouth to suck
your filthy hole to fuck
a shadow of a man
erase all that i am
Track Name: Ubik
mind and body, tethered to each moment
unaware of the constant dissolution
spilling out into a blank horizon

i recognize
familiar patterns
days become years
by force of habit
arms outstretched
into the chasm

time is a phantom
always receding
this sedentary life
offers no meaning
i feel restless
pacing the cage
disconnected
wasting away

i can’t remember
i can’t remember
not feeling this way

i can’t remember
i can’t remember
not feeling this way
i can’t remember
Track Name: Todestriebe
open my body
expose what’s inside me
no soul burning brightly
where is it hiding?

just this animal instinct
a cycle repeating
a primitive function
a drive toward destruction

life is an error
a violent transgressor
recoiling in terror
in the face of forever

time’s fatal arrow
pierces the marrow
surrender my body
let death inside me

staring down my executioner
puts the gun to my head
raises the hammer

staring down my executioner
the moment of impact
echoes forever